2. When William Blake wrote “Energy is Eternal Delight” he had the devil speak the statement. (Would he claim other angels called stillness delight? I’d never studied Blake the way you did, dear. All I knew was Blake, the bravura craftsman, danced backwards on copperplate.)
3. The stillness of the body of the beloved, who was once my husband. I needed to witness it, to speak to it, his body an unravelling, no longer in consonance with our life. We knew it would come, the tsunami, the waves draining ahead of death.
4. I don’t cry much. Unless I see another’s tears mine rarely come. My mourning wraps itself in stillness. No plañideras need be hired—let us sit together, let those leaves fall for a shroud, for every wild thing that falls dead mid-breath.
5. Our mother star has broken through clouds, its radiance caught by my upturned face as if I were a sunflower. It dazzles me. All joy that was, has been doubled, tripled, washing over me, leaving me breathless, motionless, for a moment I’m still in your arms. This love, as profligate as fireweed.